Yesterday was kindergarten round-up for the Cedar Falls school district. I am still in denial and shock that Jaxon actually participated this spring. I mean, really? Has 5 years gone by since we brought a dark haired, dimpled, and dark skin new baby home? Sigh. Being a parent is so bitter-sweet don't you think? We love love love the little moments with our little ones (and big ones too I'm sure) and while we want to hold on to those moments forever, we also want to see them grow and reach new milestones. I was excited and sad for yesterday all in one! We've had a couple friends have their first borns this spring... and I've been walking through my own memories of becoming a new mom as I watch them experience it all from the very start. I love all their stories of each "new" thing to them and the wonder that their babies bring them. Like being a mommy was created just for them. I think that's how many new mom's feel... like motherhood was created just for them to wear that hat and fill those shoes. It's beautiful. Where did the time go between those moments and today? Well this moment made me realize how precious EACH moment is and what a journey we have to walk with our little ones. I love looking at what has brought us to this moment and it's been a great journey! Through all the emotions that parenting brings, none is better then the feeling of love and pride as you watch your child accept the next milestone in their life. Jaxon was SO EXCITED for the day! He woke up all smiles, put his CF Tiger shirt on right away (his choice, not mine!), and couldn't wait for 9am!! It was so weird to take him and drop him off with people I don't know and with kids I've never seen and at a building I've walked through once in my entire life. Talk about courage... I wanted to run with him a couple times and just keep him in my van til all was clear!! But then he would have missed meeting that nice little boy in his line, he would have missed playing with the new toys in the classroom, he would have missed having that yummy snack he talked and talked about, he would have missed that funny video about principals and puppies and who knows what else! Jaxon was all smiles and only held my hand tight for a little while. Mom here was pretty good too. I only blinked tears back twice and held Jaxon's hand tight for a little while :) It's funny... months ago when Austin was just a newborn and I was up in the night nursing him and weeping over how fast Jaxon was growing I just kept repeating the verse from Philippians 4:13 "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me". As we walked up to the school building yesterday morning Jaxon was repeating that same verse out loud, he had just memorized it this week and was telling it to me over and over. I guess God knew we both needed a little reminding that morning... we can do all things through Christ who strengthens us.
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Oh Jess! This is so exciting and sad at the same time. He's getting to be oh-so grown up! I bet I'll come back from college and he'll be as tall as I am.
Precious... a CF Tiger through and through. :)
You know I will keep an eye on him at school, and sneak a hug in here and there when none of the kids are looking:)
Jen
awwwww jess. great post.
I'm with you Jess....I'm so not ready for Kira to go next fall but I know it's time to let go a little more. We've been visiting the school with her therapists....she hold my hand tight and I blink back a few tears each time too.
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